Finally Home.

Hey Everyone.

I feel like today has just drug on and on. Maybe because my back still hurts, maybe because I’m pretty exhausted or maybe because I am not in love with my job – maybe a combination of all 3??

I got up this morning at 6:00 and finished icing the fudge brownie cupcakes. Linsey and I got all the valentine’s finished last night and the cupcakes were baked, but I needed them to be completely cooled before icing them which they weren’t by the time we finished everything else. So I decided that icing them this morning was better than staying up late to wait for them. They turned out pretty good if I do say so myself…

Then it was time to have breakfast with the girls. Jason had already helped me out by getting Regan ready for the day and Linsey got herself ready so I made breakfast. I was not super hungry so a mug of coffee and my 3 minute oatmeal cookie was just enough to fill me up.

I topped it with a scoop of almond butter and a sprinke of shredded coconut. It was quite tasty and very filling. The oatmeal cookie is a great breakfast!

The girs and I headed out early so that we could drop off the cupcakes in Linsey class then Regan and I went to school/work. The day went by so slow… I felt fairly good until about half way through the day and I started to stiffen up again. Some ibuprofen and my yummy lunch helped a little.

That sandwich was such a great concoction!! I used the Rudi’s bread that I love so much, Ah! Zeefa hot spread, muenster cheese, tomato and avocado that I smashed up with a little lime juice. HELLO!!! The fuji apple helped cut some of the spice of my sandwich.

I left work a couple minutes early so I could make it to Linsey’s school for the last part of her Valentine party. Regan was having hers too, but I don’t think she really knows if I’m there or not yet and Linsey really wanted me at hers. There were tons of goodies at the party besides my cupcakes…

I indulged in one cupcake, one cookie and a cup of ‘Love Potion’.

The kids handed out their Valentine’s and enjoyed all their treats.

Then the kids played a game kind of like musical chairs, but it was on the floor with a giant gift wrapped box. As the music played they passed the box and once it stopped the person left holding it had to unwrap the box till the music started again. It got quite loud and very rowdy, but they all had a great time.

Once the party ended we helped clean up, I gossiped with some of the other mom’s and then we were off to pick up Regan. She was excited to see Linsey and I both picking her up and grabbed her ‘goodie bag’ to go home. Normally she isn’t that excited to go home at the end of the day, but I think she wanted the treats inside the bag that badly!!

Linsey and Regan both couldn’t wait to dig into their goodie bags and see what they got. They each chose two treats to have while watching cartoons together. Oh – to be a kid again.

One of the coolest treats came in Regan’s goodie bag, but sadly, she wouldn’t even share them with her mommy.

I need to clean the kitchen desperately – that’s what I get for being injured for 2 days!!

The girls and I will be dining on left over chili so that I don’t dirty up anymore bowls, but I probably won’t post again tonight because I have some writing to do.

If you follow me on twitter or are a fan on facebook you may have noticed that I quietly made an announcement this morning…I’m going to write a book. I have not been asked to write a book or offered money for writing a book, but I have wanted to write a book for a very long time. Some of the subject matter is very personal – hell – who am I kidding…ALL of the subject matter is very personal so I needed to distance myself a bit from the time period I will be writing about. I feel like I’m in a very good place right now and am at peace with everything so I can write it and not feel bad or scared or mad or angry. I can write it and explain in honest and concise thoughts without feeling sad or hurt. I have had ideas swirling in my head for weeks now, but just in the past few days have been able to really put them together.

I think tonight I will spend a good deal of time writing after the girls go to bed. I really feel like writing is what I was always meant to do, but I let my fear of failure or fear of judgement or fear of not being good enough control me and keep me from really pursuing it. Well – I’m 30 fucking years old and it’s time to stop being so scared all the time!! It’s time to be the person I tell my girls to be everyday. It’s time to show them that if you want something bad enough you have to work hard for it and even fight if necessary!! So – tonight the fight begins…wish me luck.