It’s been a rough few weeks for me. If you haven’t noticed I’ve been pretty lacking in the blogging department for quite sometime. Life has been dealing me with a lot of one – two punches lately. The girls are constantly on the move with this activity or that performance or another soccer game so when we are at home the very last thing I want to do is sit in front of my laptop telling everyone where we’ve been and what we’ve been doing. I really just want to spend time with them watching Regan put together a puzzle (the girl is obsessed) or listen to silly songs on youtube with Linsey or watch The Voice or read a book.
We were dealt a devastating blow on February 10th. After spending Linsey’s 13th birthday with friends at Layla we had to pack up the car and drive down to Springfield to be with my family. The hospice nurse told my aunt and my grandmother that my grandfather’s health was on the decline and it would probably be his last weekend. Being there for my grandmother and to say good-bye to the most important man in my entire life was not even a question — we had to go.
My grandfather, Eugene Calvin Beger, left this earth at 10:43 the morning on February 10th. It was both expected and devastating at the very same time. The girls took it well, but me — not so much. He was the most important man in my life and I’m pretty sure he died not really knowing that. While I hope that isn’t the case — I spent the last days of his life doing whatever I could to let him know that it was true. Even though he wasn’t able to talk at the end — I know he was grateful (and probably a bit irritated if I know him at all) that we were all there. I know that I was.
With regards to this blog…
The truth is my posts as of late have sucked. I know it. You know it. Anyone with an 8th grade education knows it!
My heart hasn’t been in it for quite some time and it totally showed in the writing. In the content I was beating like a dead horse. And in the giant amounts of time between posts.
The fact of the matter is that I am at a point where I would rather be living my life rather than writing about it. And truthfully — who cares what I ate or what workout I did or what goofy face my kids were making on any particular day? If that is something you care about then we can be friends on facebook or twitter or instagram and you’ll get the same information without all the unnecessary words.
Don’t get me wrong — I still love reading other blogs written by much more talented writers than I am, but for me, right now, it’s just not a priority. I’ll be leaving this site up and running just in case, in the future, I change my mind, but for now you can find me at the dance studio or on the side lines of the soccer field or at the bar of Jason’s restaurant or working out in my tv room or hanging out in my bed, in my pajamas, with my kids watching The Voice.
Thank you for being loyal readers, loyal commenters and amazing people.